Talk about this new lifestyle being hard! I have a hard time controlling the temptations that my family puts in front of me. I just can't help the fact that sometimes I want an Italian Sausage or Vension Sausage, or some other kind of yummy fattening food. I must admit the food I am choosing to eat is expensive, time consuming to prepare, and at times not the most appealing. I am having a hard time maintaining this considering I don't grocery shop very often and at times I despise cooking and trying new food. However, I will continue because I feel that the weight loss is helping a little bit and I am looking forward to continuing to lose more. I just hate how difficult this is. I guess nobody said this is going to be easy but I have to just keep praying for strength to get through this. I know that once I can get into the proper routine it will only get easier to continue.
Not only is this new lifestyle I am choosing to be on hard but so is being a stay at home mommy. Especially a stay at home mommy that sometimes just doesn't feel good. The last two days have been extremely tough. I just couldn't nor did I want to do anything. I have been logging my symptoms and my moods and I have found that the birth control pill and my symptoms match up. I am noticing the changes based on certain days in the pack. How ironic is that? I am finally able to put two and two together and hopefully after my follow up appointment in Altoona on Monday I will be able to have some more answers. I know I am having a hard time with the neurologist returning my calls. I am hoping that things will work out! I can only hope right? This whole not feeling good and trying to be a mommy that takes care of the kids and the house has been extremely hard and not to mention this week I am trying to make a banner, clean the house, and make a cake for my foster daughter's birthday. I just hope I have the ambition and the will power to do it all. Last weekend I spent time creating a small craft and my worry jar! I utilized that today. I am giving all my worries to God today because I have some. I know that with him I can get through this. With him I can continue to make my own baby wipes, my own laundry soap and whatever else I can find that "you can do yourself." I am working hard at saving my pennies. I need to at this point. I am a stay at home mommy with limited money and I need to budget every last cent we have so that we can provide things for our family. I am learning all kinds of new things....how to make laundry soap, dish soap, chalkboard paint (this is my favorite must say), and other different types of things in the home. I have been making my own baby wipes for several weeks now and my little man with what I thought was "Chronic diaper rash" has not had many problems on his bum for several weeks!!! That makes for one happy baby, one happy mama and dada as we are saving some money! I am thinking I should start sharing some of the wonderful things I am learning! God is really amazing and after reading several passages out of the bible (yes I am behind on reading the bible every day for a year) but I am still reading it and I am finding out a lot about God and his glorious ways. God is amazing and he will help me through my days when I sick and when I am feeling good. He can do all that for all of you as well. God is truly wonderful! With all that I am trying to do here at home this weekend, he has still laid a new idea on my heart and I just can't wait to work on it! I am hoping that it will be something I can make for others as well once I am finished with it! I will post pictures in my next blog of some of things I am working on! I want to start sharing things with you guys. You are all so special to me and I hope that I can inspire you to take on different challenges with a strong heart and mind but especially a strong desire to follow God.
This life is proving to be tough, but I know that God is carrying me through especially as I continue to seek him out more everyday. I can't wait to show you pictures of the cake and of my creations over the next week! They are turning out to be better than I thought!
God Bless each of you reading tonight and remember this.... Even though life is hard, God makes it so much easier!
Amanda
Amanda, it sounds like you are doing great! I can imagine it is hard being a stay at home mom, let alone all of the other challenges you are tackling as well. Sounds like you are doing it with grace though! It really is challenging to eat healthy, isn't it? It is certainly more expensive, which is hard when you are the one grocery shopping and you are trying to pinch pennies wherever you can.Plus it certainly takes more work/thought- and we all have some days where we just want to be able to grab something quick or comforting. Sending you positive thoughts, and letting you know you are certainly not alone in that frustration! haha Stick with it and do whatever changes you can at least, if it helps your health it'll all be worth it. How did you make your laundry soap/dish soap?! I've thought about making my own but wasn't sure how well they worked.
ReplyDeleteThank You Meghan! I am doing well I think! I had some struggles after my spinal tap but am back on the mend. I have found something that I am looking forward to writing about and am currently working on a blog for it. As for the laundry and dishwasher soap they are sooooooo easy. Basically if you have Superwashing baking soda, borax and epsom salts and fels naptha bar soap you are good to go. I just pinned some pins on different formulas and tried making it. I know the dishwasher soap I have to put a little bit of vinegar in the door to help get the chemicals going and dishes clean. Good luck So far it has saved us some money since I am also making my own baby wipes too!
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