Want a New Life?... Me Too!

How often do you sit down and wish you had things differently?  I mean if you’re anything like me you probably pray for it every day right?  We pray for better financial situations, better relationships,better health, better circumstances all around!!! We are never satisfied with what we have. WHY?  Why are we never satisfied?  Why can’t we just be thankful for what God gave us?  I mean money pays our bills and puts food on the table, but why can’t we be happy with the life we have?  I struggle with hearing people complain and cut people down constantly every chance they get, and these social media sites are great in theory until you catch adults acting like teenagers or I guess I should say it UNCHRISTIAN like.  Basically people we are expecting our lives to be perfect here on earth.  We want the perfect house, the perfect relationship, the perfect society, and the perfect financial situation.  I have news for you….this is earth and life is not perfect!  We have to work at life, we have to accept what we were given and the situations we are put in and deal with them in a Christian way. Why, because one day we will be given the perfect life in heaven where we will have everything unflawed and laid out for us so neatly.  We will have no more struggles, no more adults acting like children, we will all get along, and we will all love one another.  This time and this place is affected by our sin and our unwillingness to live the way God intended...by his word. If we do not start to change that soon then eventually we will be so overcome with all the sin and hurt that there will be nothing left of good in the world.  You are not going to get a better life sitting on your butt writing nasty comments about people on facebook or twitter or google+!  NO, you get a better life by reading God’s word, volunteering, spreading his name, and just being a minister to others, but also by making yourself a healthier happier individual.  If you put your trust in the Lord he will provide for you.  I know I struggle to put my whole trust in the Lord but at this point in my life, we have come to that crossroads where it is time for me to say Lord, it is up to you! I know it says in the bible you are tithe every week and give of your money but my husband and I have never been able to do that….but I have always given of my time freely and willingly.  I have always volunteered at the church whenever I could because I can’t give of myself in the form of money.  Like I said money is not always what God is looking for.  God is looking for Love….He wants us to Love one another.  That is his biggest commandment.  So I choose to love other children by being a foster parent and I choose to love to work with other kids as that is my passion.  I love others no matter what their flaws, and even if a child has to leave my home for reasons I still choose to love and care about them.  I pray from them and hope that God will get them through because it will be the choices that they make that will cause them to struggle in their life.  We all have choices that define our lives, so please make good ones and choose to go and be in God’s word, and choose to love one another, and choose trust God with those finances and what ever decisions you make have faith and trust in the Lord as you make those those choices.  Hopefully, along the way we all will have our better life, if we choose to have this life with God!

“I pray that Christ will live in your hearts by faith and that your life

will be strong in love and be built on love.”

Ephesians 3:17 (NCV)

A New Season of Life

The loves of my life and the Greatest Season
God could have Given me. 

To Everything there is a season, and a time for every purpose under heaven. A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted; a time to kill and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up; a time to weep, and a time to dance; a time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing; a time to seek, and a time to lose' a time to keep and a time to cast away; a time to tear, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak; a time to love and a time to hate; a time for war, and a time for peace. 

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8 

As we get ready for a new season to start, I have to wonder about life.  This is something I have been wondering alot about lately.  What makes a person happy?  What makes the days drag on?  What is our exact purpose?  I mean there are so many questions and really no one to answer them.  As I get ready to start my second round of the Daniel Plan Bible study for Church, I have to wonder if people will be interested or actually show up.  Then I thought to myself this is a "new" thing in my life.  As I was thinking about the new step I was about to take I thought about the new season.  So I started to relate my steps with the scripture of the bible.  How great is the bible?  God has it all written for us! There is a reason for everything.  Every season of life has a purpose.  The loss of a job is a season of life! Moving to a new house, having a baby, raising a foster child, taking a new position at another job, volunteering at church, a child going to preschool, getting diagnosed with a medical condition, whatever the challenge or the praise is a season of life! God is giving us all a time to dance or a time cry, a time plant and a time to pluck what we plant.  Whatever is there it has a beginning and an end.  It will stop! Just like a season it will end.  How do we know this Look at life, life ends and scripture tells us that there is a time to be born and a time to die.  We don't know when our time is but until then we need to live our life to God's purpose.  Not our purpose.  Life is challenging, I see that don't worry I live a challenging life on my own but I am here to say that I want to change and depend on God to get me through life so that I can live life for his purpose.  I mean I am still really struggling with what I am here for in the first place.  I know that in the last few months we have gone through many challenges but I am ready to start with a fresh new outlook.  I am personally tired of my husband telling me I worry too much or I am too short with the kids because my nerves are shot after hearing the tantrums all day long.  I am tired of dealing with the personal attack from the foster child and the stress that puts on me personally.  I am tired of all this!!! I am tired of not sleeping, of snacking because I am stressed out, or not giving my all to my spouse because I am exhausted from dealing with the kids.  MOST OF ALL I AM TIRED OF NOT LOOKING HEALTHY AND FEELING HEALTHY.  I have lost 35 pounds with the Daniel plan and I still have at least 30-40 more to go.  I want to have the best mental clarity that I can have and the best amount of energy I can have.  I am just ready to stop living this way.  

I have been learning alot about the female brain thanks to Dr. Amen's book Unleash the Power of the Female Brain, I highly recommend this book!!!! Just saying but let me tell you the information in there combined with the Daniel Plan combined with me focusing on stopping all this nonsense I think I will see some results! I have to stop the negative thoughts and the Over emotional reactions that I get to things, but most of all I need to Depend on God.  He will get me through the exercises to help my brain and help me through the changes I am going to make.  I know that the kids are too young to understand, but I look for my spouse to hopefully be supportive.  I can't guarantee it but I pray for that.  I know that "I Walk in the strength of the lord." - Psalm 71:16.  Today starts a new season in my life, a season of change....... although I have not started it out very good as the kids have frustrated me and I am not focusing very well.  I am getting my plans written down and my new "plans of actions" ready for battle among the children! :) Needless to say I ready for the new season! I am ready to take on the wealth of information that the bible is going to give me along with the books I am reading and the bible studies I attend and the people I meet.  I also can't wait to see how God intends to lead me because I am depending on him.  I can't exactly live this type of life on my wisdom, I have to do it on God's.  So here goes nothing Hopefully I can continue to walk in the strength of the lord and continue to depend on God while I go through everything.  

I know that this will be a challenge especially as I go through the struggles with my back (I recently found out I have a bulging disc that cannot be fixed right now so I have to find exercises that I can do to try and stretch it out.  Plus we have my Psuedo Tumor to still deal with but that I think we finally have under control a little better now after almost 1.5 years of trying to figure out the headaches.  I am not getting the headaches as intense! :) That alone is a praise!!! I am just trying to figure out now what to do so that I can move forward and be the best that I can be! I want to move forward and finish losing the weight, continue to work on my challenges and find my ultimate happiness.  

“I trust in you, O Lord. You are my God. My times are in your

hands.” Psalm 31:14-15a