A New Season of Life

The loves of my life and the Greatest Season
God could have Given me. 

To Everything there is a season, and a time for every purpose under heaven. A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted; a time to kill and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up; a time to weep, and a time to dance; a time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing; a time to seek, and a time to lose' a time to keep and a time to cast away; a time to tear, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak; a time to love and a time to hate; a time for war, and a time for peace. 

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8 

As we get ready for a new season to start, I have to wonder about life.  This is something I have been wondering alot about lately.  What makes a person happy?  What makes the days drag on?  What is our exact purpose?  I mean there are so many questions and really no one to answer them.  As I get ready to start my second round of the Daniel Plan Bible study for Church, I have to wonder if people will be interested or actually show up.  Then I thought to myself this is a "new" thing in my life.  As I was thinking about the new step I was about to take I thought about the new season.  So I started to relate my steps with the scripture of the bible.  How great is the bible?  God has it all written for us! There is a reason for everything.  Every season of life has a purpose.  The loss of a job is a season of life! Moving to a new house, having a baby, raising a foster child, taking a new position at another job, volunteering at church, a child going to preschool, getting diagnosed with a medical condition, whatever the challenge or the praise is a season of life! God is giving us all a time to dance or a time cry, a time plant and a time to pluck what we plant.  Whatever is there it has a beginning and an end.  It will stop! Just like a season it will end.  How do we know this Look at life, life ends and scripture tells us that there is a time to be born and a time to die.  We don't know when our time is but until then we need to live our life to God's purpose.  Not our purpose.  Life is challenging, I see that don't worry I live a challenging life on my own but I am here to say that I want to change and depend on God to get me through life so that I can live life for his purpose.  I mean I am still really struggling with what I am here for in the first place.  I know that in the last few months we have gone through many challenges but I am ready to start with a fresh new outlook.  I am personally tired of my husband telling me I worry too much or I am too short with the kids because my nerves are shot after hearing the tantrums all day long.  I am tired of dealing with the personal attack from the foster child and the stress that puts on me personally.  I am tired of all this!!! I am tired of not sleeping, of snacking because I am stressed out, or not giving my all to my spouse because I am exhausted from dealing with the kids.  MOST OF ALL I AM TIRED OF NOT LOOKING HEALTHY AND FEELING HEALTHY.  I have lost 35 pounds with the Daniel plan and I still have at least 30-40 more to go.  I want to have the best mental clarity that I can have and the best amount of energy I can have.  I am just ready to stop living this way.  

I have been learning alot about the female brain thanks to Dr. Amen's book Unleash the Power of the Female Brain, I highly recommend this book!!!! Just saying but let me tell you the information in there combined with the Daniel Plan combined with me focusing on stopping all this nonsense I think I will see some results! I have to stop the negative thoughts and the Over emotional reactions that I get to things, but most of all I need to Depend on God.  He will get me through the exercises to help my brain and help me through the changes I am going to make.  I know that the kids are too young to understand, but I look for my spouse to hopefully be supportive.  I can't guarantee it but I pray for that.  I know that "I Walk in the strength of the lord." - Psalm 71:16.  Today starts a new season in my life, a season of change....... although I have not started it out very good as the kids have frustrated me and I am not focusing very well.  I am getting my plans written down and my new "plans of actions" ready for battle among the children! :) Needless to say I ready for the new season! I am ready to take on the wealth of information that the bible is going to give me along with the books I am reading and the bible studies I attend and the people I meet.  I also can't wait to see how God intends to lead me because I am depending on him.  I can't exactly live this type of life on my wisdom, I have to do it on God's.  So here goes nothing Hopefully I can continue to walk in the strength of the lord and continue to depend on God while I go through everything.  

I know that this will be a challenge especially as I go through the struggles with my back (I recently found out I have a bulging disc that cannot be fixed right now so I have to find exercises that I can do to try and stretch it out.  Plus we have my Psuedo Tumor to still deal with but that I think we finally have under control a little better now after almost 1.5 years of trying to figure out the headaches.  I am not getting the headaches as intense! :) That alone is a praise!!! I am just trying to figure out now what to do so that I can move forward and be the best that I can be! I want to move forward and finish losing the weight, continue to work on my challenges and find my ultimate happiness.  

“I trust in you, O Lord. You are my God. My times are in your

hands.” Psalm 31:14-15a